Abstract (EN) ‘I desire never again to experience that kind of freedom’. Absolving the past in Dutch autobiographies (1800-1850).The way Dutch autobiographers looked back on their lives changed much in the period between 1750 and 1850. In this period a new consciousness of history developed in which the gap between past, present and future was widened. Autobio graphies from this so-called Sattelzeit contain new ideas, such as an emphasis on the irreversible character of the past. Nostalgia, however, is scarce, at least compared with French autobiographies, according to Peter Fritszche, who mainly studied writing by French emigrants. Several reasons are discussed for this unique development in the Netherlands. First, there was no large wave of emigra tions after 1795, and consequently less longing for a lost past among Orangists. Secondly, the Batavian Revolution had lead to a French occupation that everyone, including former revolutionaries, wanted to forget.